Trying to Find a Balance
24 October 2017
What is balance, what does that word actually mean? Is it a verb, a noun, an adjective—balanced. All of the above? It depends on the individual and the situation right?

In a certain moment it could be something physical, tangible, something you're trying not to lose. Maybe you're trying so hard to nail that bird of paradise in your Thursday morning yoga class. 

What about the concept of balance in the bigger picture? You hear about work-life balance in most western societies. As if there is supposed to be this perfect balance between working that job you may or may not hate and your personal life, your relationships, your passions. But why should it be literally a balancing act you have to consciously think about, adjust and readjust. I suppose that is what leads some people to say ‘fuck it’ and quit there job and start traveling or start a new life somewhere unfamiliar, maybe start their own business and attempt to turn that passion into their full-time reality. Because since when does it have to be one or the other, or at the very least a struggle to keep it all balanced? It doesn’t. 

Because since when does it have to be one or the other, or at the very least a struggle 
to keep it all balanced? It doesn’t. 

I have the word tattooed on my body, balance, and I have by no means figured it out. I suppose it is just a reminder to seek it, but also to remind myself that it is something that I will probably always be working on, and I'm not going to ever be perfectly balanced (nor will my tattoo, go travel tats in foreign countries!)—life doesn't work that way…I don’t think. 

But luckily, balance isn't a finite, objective concept. What you may think of as balance(d) I probably won't, and vice versa. There are thousands of people who look grounded and beautiful nailing that bird of paradise while I stand there trembling staring at the only point in view not moving trying not to fall on my ass. It's a continuous concept, maybe I felt balanced last Saturday but today I'm writing this trying to figure it all out confused as all hell. 
Bird of Paradise pose, just for reference (insert anguished, sweating emoji here)
So what is balance? The definitions are varied, ranging from mental and emotional steadiness to physical equilibrium to an aesthetically pleasing integration of elements. Are you talking about your life as a whole and what you’re striving to accomplish and the way you want to live? Are you talking about your yoga practice? Or are you talking about a work of art? The evolution of how one defines balance to themselves will always be continuous and subject to each situation. Being present and remaining aware of your personal definition of the concept in any given moment or situation is what really counts, I think. 

Being present and remaining aware of your personal definition of the concept in any 
given moment or situation is what really counts, I think. 

Maybe it isn’t even a concept you’ve really given much thought to, maybe you think about it all the time. Maybe you’ll think about it and realize you are living a balanced life, by your own definition. Personally, I have my days of internal balance, I’m diligently working on my physical balance (forever grateful for discovering yoga), then there is an external balance.  By external, I mean the big picture, including all the spontaneous external factors beyond my control. And working to combine that with what I actually can control and to find that happy equilibrium, getting myself to where I want to be and just rolling through the waves as they come. 
But for now, I’m just trying to find a balance.


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